Me to her: Hey, I just first want to say you're gorgeous. You walk into a room and my heart melts. You speak, and my throat closes up. You laugh, and I shatter completely. There is something about you, since the day I met you, October 2013, that has captured my attention. I don't mean to seem weird to you, I just can't control it. I'm embarrassed to talk to you, for reasons you and I know about the other girl in the situation. But I can only wish you happiness if it becomes her. But I will be there right away if its not. I think about you and what we could be all the time. The worst part is I just want to be friends outside of group get togethers but I'm scared of rejection, or fear I'm trying to make a move. It's literally killing me.
You: I like you, I really like you. You're beautiful.
Me: I don't ever let people in like this.*falls slowly but surely*
*hands over heart*
You: hold on, let me keep building your hopes up, and while you're not looking I'm going to tear down every wall you've tried to build, and I think I'm going to destroy your fragile heart...
Me: there is no one in this world to fix this damage. But I can only dream of a new you, while I dwell on the memories of the old. Let me cry until I can't breathe, let me get so sick I can't eat, let me break everything I physically can because I can't hurt the old you back.